if you have someone in your life who genuinely cares about how your day went, and listens fully to the fucked up shit that goes on in your mind, and answers your texts or calls you back, and lets you know you’re important to them and/or generally makes you feel cared for, you’re really fucking lucky and i hope you tell this person you appreciate them and i hope if they treat you right and make you feel safe and loved, you hold onto them really tight.
it’s getting bad again
horrible feeling that this is going to be the reason that it all falls apart. I just want to hide away and cry, but I’ve been so strong for so long
I just wish you were here tonight. our pillow talk last night was so great and it put things into perspective for me. it just further proves that I’m in a completely different mindset than so many people my age. I’ve tried to blend in with them, but I don’t like who I started to become. time to go back to being who I was before, and doing things that will benefit me rather than just doing things to help everyone else. things are gonna change and it’s funny how a conversation about other people is what sparked this for me
being sick and running on little sleep has been catching up to me. gonna crash as soon as I get home from work
hate having to wake Robert up in the mornings
I mean it’s been a while bc he’s extremely unimportant to me now. it’s been almost 7 months?? I’ve found someone better, although we aren’t an actual thing, I’m so much more content. thanks for checking up on me, that’s sweet~